Faith and Defiance: The Journey of a Religious Rebel, deel 8 A Contemplative Autobiography

Nathan Lopes Cardozo

vrijdag 28 augustus 2020

Chapter 8, Making Sense of a Mixed Marriage


Advice to the reader:
To get a better understanding of the nature and intention of this autobiography, I suggest that the reader should, at the very least, read through the two-part introduction to this series.


Yeshivat Ponevitch, Spinoza and Richard Dawkins

I often wonder how all the Jewish customs, and religious rituals, which I completely and wholeheartedly participate in, are perceived from the perspective of an outsider. I frequently ask myself how I would explain these strange customs and rituals to non-Jews. I also wonder how I would explain Judaism’s highly unusual ideology, (its theology, as some people would define it), especially its constant emphasis on Halachic minutiae and seeming trivialities; for example, how many grams of matza one needs to eat on Pesach night, or whether a mezuza or Sefer Torah are still kosher if one letter is partially missing.

Such concepts are totally foreign to the non-Jewish world. In fact, it looks completely absurd. Indeed, it is absurd when one views it from an alien non-Jewish perspective. Nevertheless, I am still able to explain it to a non-Jew (which really means to myself) by translating it into a language that the non-Jew could understand. I will write more about this at a later occasion.

I think this may be due to my non-Jewish background, which provides me with a mental language to explain these concepts to outsiders I can penetrate the non-Jewish mind, fully understand its problems with Judaism and I can then attempt to overcome this gap by recasting Judaism into a language that an outsider can appreciate without losing my Jewish identity in the process. It is the result of two worlds living side by side which create a kind of third personality within my being.

This is also the reason why I can relate very well to non-religious, or Reform and Conservative Jews. I can see their point of view, sometimes I can even read their minds and still disagree with their ideologies. On the other hand, I also appreciate many of the insights advanced by non-Orthodox and secular thinkers and believe that these ideas – when properly appropriated – can enhance Orthodox Judaism. Hence, I will quote these ideas in my lectures which is not always appreciated by mainstream orthodox Jews.

In an opposite vein, I feel entirely at home in the famous ultra-orthodox Yeshivot such as the Ponevitch Yehiva in Bnei Brak and can fully participate in a Talmudic debate as a member of the “Yeshiva chevre” as if I were born and raised in this Yiddish speaking world. Paradoxically enough, a moment later, I can find myself reading Spinoza’s Ethics and his pantheistic, possibly even atheistic philosophy or Richard Dawkin’s The God Delusion. In all these instances, I can transform their observations and “convert” them to Judaism as Rosenzweig demands.

This actually gives me a thrill and helps me appreciate Judaism even more. I strongly feel that this is my mission in life and don’t want to miss out on it. Had I not had these qualities and experiences, it is very possible that I would have lost out and my Judaism would have been all the poorer for it. Whether this is due to my non-Jewish background, I cannot say for sure, but it may have something to do with the non-Jewish blood (of my maternal ancestors) coursing through my veins, which I need to “transfuse” back into Judaism.

My Parents Mixed Marriage for Higher Purposes and Rabbi Mordechai Joseph of Izbica

Let me add another dimension that I hope is not too shocking for my readers: despite my very strong opposition to mixed-marriages, I paradoxically feel that the marriage of my parents, while forbidden by Jewish Law, was “min haShamayim”, (guided by Heaven), to enable me to fulfill my mission as I described above. This may sound very arrogant but it actually makes me tremble and highly uncomfortable. Can I know this for sure? And if this is indeed the case, am I living up to my duty? I have sleepless nights because of it.

It reminds me of a Talmudic observation that the adulterous relationship between Yehudah and Tamar (Bereshit, chapter 38) was preordained by God to set in motion the Davidic line and “shalshelet hamashiach” (the messianic dynasty), which also includes Mashiach’s capacity to redeem the non-Jewish world (See Talmud Bavli, Sota 10b; Makot 23b; See also Rav Tzadok HaCohen of Lublin in Sefer Poked Akarim, chapter 5).

Let nobody think for a moment that I’m comparing my parents to Yehudah and Tamar or that I harbor any messianic pretensions about myself (far from it!). I do believe, however, that the phenomenon the Talmud describes may be realized in different ways and come to pass in each generation. Again, this is pure speculation, but I cannot help thinking about it when I contemplate my background and mission. In this way, I am perhaps able to fulfill in small measure Rosenzweig’s demand “to bring the maximum of what is alien back to Judaism.”

It reminds of the most unusual remarks of the Chassidic Rebbe, Rabbi Mordechai Joseph Leiner of Izbica (1801-1854), author of the work Mei HaShiloach. He discusses the case of Zimri ben Salu who had forbidden intercourse with a Midianite woman by the name of Kozbi bat Tzur, whereupon they were both summarily killed by Pinchas, the son of Elazar, the son of Aaron the priest (Bamidbar, chapter 25). In his comment, Rabbi Mordechai Joseph argues that sometimes God orchestrates a forbidden relationship for higher purposes, and this was also the case with Kozbi and Zimri. (See Mei Hashiloach, Vol 1.s.v Vayar Pinchas, Bne Berak, 5767, page 165. At a later stage, I will discuss the Mei HaShiloach’s philosophy of commitment to Halacha and the occasional need to violate it, and I’ll reflect on how this affects me personally.

To be continued.


With thanks to Yehudah DovBer Zirkind and Yael Shahar for their editorial comments.

3 + 3 = ?
Dear mr Cardozo, Please also read Nietzsche with an open mind. You will find so much Jewishness in his so called a-theistic writings.

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